happy new year
Hi, I am so happy to hear from you again. my dear friends.
Sorry for my stillness…
It has been almost a year since I came to London. K and I had separated. He is in India with his new girl. I am still alone. Recently just quit the job in China town, trying to focus on my English study. Hope I can pass IELTS in the next coming months. Then I can apply for a film studying MA course in London (seems to be the best option for my situation). On next April I will go to Germany again, give a workshop in Heidelberg university. and then may go back to London or go to India to get an other yoga certificate for my teaching. I should be able come back to London in summer. Continue to study or work here. Have been writing special column for the top Chinese news papers 3 times a week for almost half year. It starts to give me enough money for a piece of bread and a single bed. Even though it requires a high rational happy mood to keep my cold and try humor in a light way to make the great laughs for my readers…also my book which about Tibetan in culture revolution should be able to come out in France soon …all thess plans and works , all sound good. And positive.
But I sometimes wake up with my grief and fighting with the emptiness.
It takes me a lot of energies. I have to meditate. To imagine a biger world out there, from my view of my tiny well. which extanding to the skies.
It’s not easy. My dear friends, when what I see it is just the gray roofs and the ice drops. I feel I nearly die. I feel I have seen the winter of Sylvia Plath here.
I thought I was capable of being hurting. But this winter is really cold.
any way….I wish I can be more stronger.
I miss you all and wish you a happy new year.
